Calm and Collected.

It would seem that it would be hard to feel calm in tulmultous situations, but I have experienced this last week. Maybe someone would call it feeling numb, but it was more like emotionally stable. One should not be surprised when challenges come up in life, but being prepared to work, and be tired, and be uncomfortbale is key. To have hope even when uncertainty is looming. Logically things cannot stay bad or to our disliking all the time. It is interesting how self care and routine go out the window right as they are needed to ground us. It is interesting how kindness is appreciated all the more when things are rough. Taking time to check in on oneself and to count the things to be grateful for become neccessary to move on. I love my family and their support to me. It has been over two week and we still don't have our new transmission in, but we are adjsuting and thankfully we have a rental car. It will be so nice when we have the big family car back. I feel like I can see the suffering others are going through more clearly as I get a taste of how it feels. I love to serve and seeing a need, helps me to have a desire to serve. I feel such relief when a weight is taken off my shoulders when I am bearing much. Hopefully, this means the Lord thinks I can be refined and learn and grow. I like to be open and faithful and its sometimes hard to change. Scarcity is a feeling I disdain, yet sometimes we have to feel like that when we sacrifice of ourselves. I try to focus more on the abundance and it gets me in a better mood. I'm grateful to be home and not at a hosptial, Im grateful for the health of my family. Im grateful for joys in life like birds, sunsets, and warm breezes to help me thorugh the dark times. All in all, I have much to be greateful for, even the lessons learned the hard way. Hoping to be okay with letting go and letting others in to help in my life. I'll focuson my upcoming trips and my humans I share time and laugh with.

Spence and Cars

Bri really wanted a van again to take Spencer around on our weekely trips. Joe needed a new car and we worked out a deal for him to get the Passat and We went and got a new van. The space is amazing just like we hoped. I was able to carry people around when we had a visitor andi t made it nice to go on family rides. I guess the van needs a new transmission, but we are going to get through that mess and move forward with keeping the van for family ride comfort and for Spence. he may start a daily route driving around for his "work", and I bet he will love it. I'm excited for himt to get out, however, I think he will enjoy the van on weekends with us. I think its great that Brian is a family man and cares so much for the kiddos. He esopecially works hard keeping Spencer's house in tip top shapes and refilling the need for swings and pull ups and popscles constantly. He is blessed to have a Dad like Brian.